Before falling asleep last night ("anoche," I have a Spanish midterm Monday, eak,) I thought more being stuck in the mud.

More specifically about knowing what I want and feeling like I'm not... getting anywhere. So, while being distracted more than ever this afternoon while I tried to do my Anatomy, (also something I have an exam in on Monday,) I put on my music. My computer Media Player has a similar feature to my beloved "scan" button in my car, the "all music/random" button. While occasionally I get strange audio clips about loans, or some in Spanish from my textbook CD, I normally listen to songs that I forget I have on my computer and once enjoyed.

So! Long story short, Lifehouse's Trying came on a few minutes ago. I admire songs that actually have a meaning that I can attribute to my own life. This one seems to talk about my "stuck in the mud" feeling quite accurately.

Could you let down your hair be transparent for awhile
Just a little while
to see if you're human after all

Honesty is a hard attribute to find
When we all want to seem like
we've got it all figured out

Well let me be the first to say that I
don't have a clue
I don't have all the answers
ain't gonna' pretend like I do

just trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way the best that I know how

Well I haven't memorized all of the cute things to say
but I'm working on it
Maybe I'll master this- art form someday

If I quote all the lines off the top of my head
Will you believe
that I fully understand all these things I've read

I'm just trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way the best that I know how

Well I- haven't got it all figured out quite yet but
even if it takes my whole life
to get to where I need to be

And if I should fall to the bottom of the end
I'll be one step back to you, and

trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way
Oh I'm trying - to find my way
trying - to find my way

Anyway, particularly that one part about not knowing all the answers. "I don't have a clue." Perhaps I don't have it all figured out either.

I should get back to Anatomy. I guess I just wanted to post this, I think it explains some things.

Anyway.