Is that so...

Why is it that people ask you the annoying question "How do you feel?" when you turn a year older? Just because it was my birthday does not mean I feel any differently than twenty-four hours ago. (Excluding this birthday when I had the exclusive experience of 21st birthday drunkenness/hangover.) What a stupid question, honestly.

Here's how I feel now that I've been twenty-one (versus only twenty) for a few days:

I still feel like I'm sixteen and in high school.

I still want to please everyone. Including the cranky older men that come to the calendar store and ask me questions for which I have no answer.

I still enjoy most just watching movies and eating fast food (that I probably haven't eaten since high school, before I realized that fast food = bad/lawsuits/obeseness/grease) over going to a bar and not remembering muttering the phrase: "I'm such a bad girl when I'm drunk," followed by giggling.

I still wish that I could wear the clothes that all the other girls wear and have the tan body that all the other girls have even though I would never tan (just burn) and the grass isn't always green over there. (Even if there are girls lounging on it to get tan.)

I still wonder if I will ever find Mr. Right... even though I know he won't be Mr. Perfect, nor will he be any of the men that I've been recycling the past five years.

I still watch re-runs of Full House, Saved by the Bell, Step by Step, Family Matters, and the occasional Dawson's Creek.

I still compare myself to Joey on Dawson's Creek, and lament over all the Dawsons in my life. (That I won't end up with.) I still wonder where Pacey is.

I still sometimes stoop my shoulders, I don't always walk upright, and I am quite often more shy than I'd like to admit.

I still talk more than I walk.

I still blush when I receive unwarranted attention from guys. (Then I wonder if he was just looking at me because my hair was sticking up/I have food in my teeth/ I look like his younger sister.)

For everyone that bothers to ask people how they feel after they've only been so old for so many hours - here's my response. I have a hunch that next year when I turn 22 most of this will be the same. So just refer back, and save the question.

(Remember when we thought 21 was old? And we couldn't possibly imagine being so old? Surprising that we wouldn't change as much as we thought, and we still feel so much like we did back then. Are we doomed to feel sixteen forever??)