WHY?

Why does everything in our lives have to be so complicated?

Why can't we just accept things for what they are and not have to continually analyze them and worry and make ourselves sick over every little detail?

Leave me alone on this. I'm happy gosh DAMNit. For once I'm trying very very hard not to analyze my life and ESPECIALLY my relationships. And when I do analyze them, let me do the analyzing. Not everyone else.

Let's just leave the analyzing to when I'm miserable. NOT when I'm happy okay?

Typical.

I have become one of those women who post song lyrics on their blogs instead of blogging themselves.

Figures.

Brian complimented me yesterday on being attractively happy. I suppose I didn't realize how unhappy (and therefore unattractive?) I had been. Since Mickey asked me to join the retreat leadership team... things have been changing. Perhaps it's just because I've been getting back to my roots... becoming more active in church and a youth group, but I feel like it's more than that. I really feel that I've found the right balance in my life. I've been busy as hell and it is only going to get worse, but I'm balancing and juggling all the areas of my life smoothly. I can't complain. I have a great job, my classes are going well and aren't too time consuming and I love piano class.... even if we are only doing finger numbers. I'm involved in church at UC, but it's not too much at all. I really love the people I've met there... they are all amazing. But I don't feel pressured or suffocated like at Franciscan. I also started volunteering today, I'm researching for a pro-life group on the resources Xavier has for pregnant students. I'm really interested in finding out information, talking with people and snooping, and I feel important with this company... they like me and want me as part of their team.... and I'm doing it for the common good... without getting paid... I don't know, it's just an amazing fit. And... of course, if I'm juggling all the other balls... have to throw in some real ones... I met a guy... yeah I know... tell you something new... well that's all I'm going to say about that.

Stop at the good stuff, damn.

Breathe (2am)

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2am)

2am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no longer inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breathe
Just breathe, ohho

Breathe.

Forever

Ben Harper - Forever

Not talkin' 'bout a year
no not three or four
I don't want that kind of forever
in my life anymore
forever always seems
to be around when it begins
but forever never seems
to be around when it ends

So give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you

People spend so much time
every single day
runnin' 'round all over town
givin' their forever away
but no not me
I won't let my forever roam
and now I hope I can find
my forever a home

So give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you

Like a handless clock with numbers
an infinite of time
no not the forever found
only in the mind
forever always seems
to be around when things begin
but forever never seems
to be around when things end

So give me your forever
please your forever
not a day less will do
from you